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Friday, October 16, 2009

...today was a sian day. spent the day watching television. and i still dislike human contact so i dun like to go out often. you know how i usually notice stuff other people don't, like people looking at us and all? i can feel their glances and glares so it's very uncomfortable. so i don't like going out.

..."that security guard looking at us"..."lol that little boy looking at you all" "that guy was glaring at us" only i can notice, it seems. you guys are just plain blind sometimes, yeah? then again, you guys are all young so, you guys are ignorant and all...

hell, when i say or type things out they mismatch with how i feel or say. words seem so damn superficial or something. they're not even close to what i think or feel. i hate words. anyway, people my age are stupid. regine is an acting bitch. jamie's too blind to see, or anyone else for that matter.

i don't care if you do it deliberately or subconciously. what matters is you do do it and it pisses me off. at how people believe you... yeah, just like me and wei xin last year, we got played and everyone else thought we were the bad guys when we were kinda harmless, unless we hate you damn freaking much, at that extent i don't know what i'll do.

seems the cruel streak was from last year. you guys know some of the things i did right? that's not even the half of it. cheers. too bored to say what happened ytd.

anyway, now when i laugh, i look and sound the same but i don't feel the positive kinda happiness. it's kinda...fake. but i have to act normal, lol. anyway ze xuan... nvm. forget it, lol. we were on bus 98 together. jamie walked together with regine. regine no doubt playing the victim act again, LOL LOL (note that the LOL are fake)

anyhow, *smiles* you don't want me to hate you, really.

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