...BITCHES

Friday, October 23, 2009

yo yo yo. i made almost tasteless jelly at regine's house... it's colorless too :( hahaha can't wait to try some!!! anyway today i had a variety of pain! it included hip pain, anke twist pain, knee pain and shoulder pain!!!

wootz. okay okay my english is 60++ i nvr fail i happy :) and toda was irritating AS USUAL.

anyway today got chinese dance... which i nvr go XD i didn't know have until today so i have no xin li zhun bei. and today afternoon ze xuan say she got briefing for CCA and she dun wan go and i tell her to go she say i have no right to say her. coz i never go chinese dance.

if it goes to 'no right', no one has any right to say anyone else in the end. freedom of speech and all, some ppl just don't shut up anyway. the way she taunts ming le and me sometimes i recognise it very well. and fake words of blindless like "I CAN SEE YOU'RE EXCITED TO GO!" when i'm not excited and was glaring at her is...just...annoying...

you know, when you get angry or sad or other negative emotions and they have no where else to go,sometimes you release it on other people like insulting them, taunting them, saying mindless and insensitive stuff and rejectal and all.... yupp, to make yourslf feel a wee bit better.

i think ze xuan knows what she's doing. coz i do that sometimes, usually at regine XDDDD sorry lor XD ...exasperation. okay nevermind. she probably read my other post. perhaps i should private my blog D: so no one knows my thoughts and all and things don't get better or worse. AND YOU WOULDN'T KNOW IF I WAS BADMOUTHING YOU!!!XD

...oh well. and afternoon shaktivel asked me what i felt about qing yi i said"Okay liao lor" and ze xuan screamed "LIKE REAL!" followed by jamie. "i said okay LIAO, now okay" and they didn't believe me. at least ze xuan didn't. i gave up on explaining and rolled eyes in exasperation. very tired of ppl dong this to me.i would think I know better about how i feel than you guys right?

"Don't like that lah" jamie replied looking kinda sad. like what? it'slike no matter what i say or do you must condemn me to the lowestlevl. after archery i talk and walk hope with qing yi and i tolerate her kay? it'sokay liao, you bitches don't believe me not my problem.

kinda felt like... a bit hopeless, hurt, desperate, like friendless, with ze xuan being like that recently, jamie also not believing me till i go to extreme moods, like exasperation point, and regine being, well, regine. and weixin diff school... and limin... actually li min's okay. she's the only one i can talk to non-stop for two hours, taking turns.

sometimes felt like killing myself. seriously. no point in living sia. there's my com and my dog tho. the people are...lettable. can let go. i miss yuhua the school more than the ppl. wow?

and the pass paper around thing right, i was only a tint pissed, after all i get angry-er at friend stuff and all but jamie didn't believe me. lack of trust ppl yay. and jamie said the last in cident would be made up for somehow in the long run. i don't believe that anymore. i told you that, you said definitely will one. how long should i wait then?

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Friday, October 23, 2009