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Saturday, November 21, 2009

ah. im in one of my blank mood days. where i feel blank. no happiness. no sadness. no boredom. just... blank. okay, anyway, let me tell you something eh?

i've always thought of killing myself on my 13th birthday. that'd be cool eh? but i didn't. probably cause i skip all the CCA so im not feeling suicidal. good girl xiang ping. though i doubt it'd matter if i died. ahhh well. whatever.

let me tell you about a dream i had. so many dreams i never post about. LOL. anyway this is before 2012 so i wasn't affected by that kay?

in my dream, i had died. i forgot how i died. i was outside. then i felt blank. then i was seating on the ladder of mu bunk bed, swinging my legs. i felt so light. i knew i was dead, and i was a ghost. and i felt kinda happy. my family wasn't grieving, and they could see me. i could talk to them. and then i go play com.

then got a game got a enemy come or something and i shut my eyes and willed it to go away and it did! i was amazed cause i had powers. i was happy that i could touch stuff. then i suddenly remembered my body and asked my mum where my body was. i was angry then? ... no, angry's not the word. hmm... it was in sichun or something. iwanted to see if i could go back in.

anyway no, it wasn't hurt or anything so i had no idea how i die one lol. so i anyway i had to return a chinese book to lao lin and i ask my bro where it was and it was on my bed and i went to return it and i sat on a cartoon train and there were obstacles and i didn't pass one of them and i think i died. there were some people there but i don't remember. LOL. sad. anyway i wake up.

the thing is, the part where i was seating on my bed was the most real one. it felt real. like i really died. oh well.

kyou mi nai shi, dakara, ikou!

... im making a bunny doll. for the person who gave me a cake. he says he'll hang it on his bag, haha...

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